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The Renewing of my Soul September 6, 2014

My soul is in a state of renewing. Constant reminders to train my eyes on Jesus. He is with me at all times yet I neglect to confer with him when I make decisions. How do I train my human mind to stop, think, consider all consequences and simply “rest” before jumping the gun and doing ANYTHING? It could be something simple like sending a text or something major like going back to school. When I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior, God sent the Holy Spirit to live inside me. With that gift of love from my Lord, I was given the assignment of listening to the promptings of the Holy Spirit. Why then do I elect to take actions that create negative consequences? This reminds me of something Paul wrote, Romans 7:15 “I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.” When God created us, he gave us free will. He sings in heaven when we choose to do right. We grieve Him and the Holy Spirit when we disobey His Word and sin. These actions can be as seemingly mundane as making a negative remark about our boss to a coworker or as catastrophic as being dishonest to our spouce. Big or small, each is based on a single decision.

As God renews my soul, I am praying He shows me how to consult Him continually, to pray unceasingly. Do I put a rubber band around my wrist and snap myself each time I forget to ask for divine guidance? Or maybe I carry a tally and give myself a hash mark for every time I do pray before making decisions. Then reward myself when I pass a predetermined goal. The bible tells us God spoke to Elijah in a “still small voice.” He wanted Elijah to see him God in everyday things. He wanted Elijah to understand He was not just the God of storms, of earthquakes, or of fire (1Kings 19:11-13). So many times I hear His still small voice and I choose not to listen. The promptings of the Holy Spirit are subtle, still, small… The radio show may be provocative or emotionally charged yet I listen. The comment I want to make to my husband is sarcastic yet I choose to make the comment. I hear coworkers gossiping and I can walk away. But I add a negative remark. All are seeds the enemy plants throughout my day to keep me from listening to the Holy Spirit, God’s “still small voice.” Guess I better stop waiting for God to shout at me like I’m a misbehaving toddler. That’s not how my God works. He know I know right from wrong. He knows I am capable of making right choices. He knows my heart. And when I choose wrong it hurts my heart and it hurts God’s heart. I want to make God sing in heaven. I don’t want to grieve Him.

Thank you, Father, for having the Holy Spirit live inside me to guide me. He intervenes for me when I pray to you. He comforts me when I’m anxious or sad. As I go through this sanctification process, or the renewing of my soul, I pray you will be patient with me. You are a God of a million chances. You are tolerant and forgiving. You are loving and kind. You are the father I didn’t have on this earth to teach me right from wrong. You discipline when I misbehave. Sometimes it is gentle reminders. Other times you convict me with more stern reminders. You gave us your Word to guide us through this temptation filled, fallen world. The more I study your Word, the more I am amazed by its simplicity and complexity (Psalm 119:105). If I choose to live by your commandments I will live in the light and be happy and contented. If I live my life with overflowing gratitude more blessings will come my way. Thank You for being my Savior. To You be the glory. This is my Good-Night prayer.

 

 

Spending Time with God… March 29, 2012

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It’s been a while since my last post.  Not really sure why.  Life has been happening so fast.  I’m in some sort of transition state in my heart and soul and God is dealing with me and I’m trying to listen and understand.  It’s hard to figure out what I’m supposed to do and what I’m supposed to leave up to him.  I’ve accepted that he’s not going to shout in my ear, “Hey, Diane.  I think it’s time to go back to college,” or “Miss Diane.  Go out and tell your story to everyone you can and I promise they’ll love and accept you and not judge you.”  This idea of “let go, and let God” is really hard to grasp.  (I really was waiting to hear Him shout out to me…)

So, I’ve finally figured out my part is to pray and read the bible.  Then pray and read the bible some more.  God will give me the wisdom to see what he has planned for me.  He will put me on the right path.  I truly believe I am right where he planned for me to be when he was creating me in my mom’s womb.

Finally I am in a bible study of Godly women who have the same goal in mind as I do… to know God, be more like Christ, and fulfill God’s calling in their lives.  I am growing to love these women so much.  God blessed me with these women because I was praying about it and reading my bible and learned how much God loves his children to fellowship together.  Wow!  That’s deep, to me.  I’m now almost 50, have been saved since I was about 13 and I’m just now realizing I have to pray, read the Word, spend time with God and ask the Holy Spirit to guide me.

I’ve learned through my depression, recovery, and the devil’s attempt at relapse that this life is not easy but it is doable.  As long as I don’t let the bad stuff “define me or take over me” I will get past them.  And once I do, I will be that much stronger for the next challenge that comes my way.  Take that, satan!!!

The subject of our winter bible study has been “Finish Strong.”  And our memory verse last week was Acts 20:24 – “However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the good Lord Jesus has given to me.  The task of testifying to the gospel of God’s Grace.”  That is Paul speaking.  He helps me realize the magnitude of God sending his one and only Son to come to earth and die on a cross to wash MY sins away completely.  Thank you God.  I praise you for loving me.

So, I’ll keep praying and reading God’s word.  I’ll keep working toward being more like Christ.  The answers and direction will come.  I know they will, in His time.

 

Thank You Lord January 19, 2010

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I have to post this today. I feel like my fingers can’t type fast enough.

I am so thankful that I know my Lord and Savior. If you’re not one for religion, you are probably going to stop reading if you haven’t already… But you must still be reading.

I was lucky enough to meet Jesus at a very young age thanks to my next door neighbors. God bless them. They took me to church with them every Sunday. Even when I moved away, they drove by my house to pick me up! Wow. I love them for that. I got to go to potlucks, camps, and other fun Christian activities.

Through the years I have drifted away from the Lord but I always come back to Him. I know in my heart and soul that Jesus is my Lord, he died on the cross for my sins and that he is perfect in every way. His Holy Spirit resides in me and guides me.

I’m still such a baby in Christ. I have to be reminded all the time to pray. To talk to God. To listen for His guidance and support. If you are not a Christian, I am here to tell you there is hope. There is a bright light. There is a warmth that will envelope you when your are scared and alone. It’s the love of our Father. And you get three for one… God the Father, his Son Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit. When I get confused if I should be saying “God” or “Jesus” in speaking about them, I know either will do. They’re one in the same.

I guess my purpose for writing this is to send a message for anyone out there who is feeling alone, scared, hopeless, sad, depressed or any of those types of feelings, you always have a friend in Jesus Christ. I know that sounds cliche, but He will never leave you. He will only love you. Pick up a bible if you can and try just opening it and reading it a little. Psalms and Proverbs were good places for me to start.

In the last couple days I’ve seen some pretty neat things happen in the lives of those I love and in my own life. I feel compelled to share my hope and joy. I feel like dancing and singing right now. And I want others to feel that joy too!! I believe with all my heart that I am at this place because of my Lord and Savior. You can be here too! It’s fun!!!!!!!!